Today in psychology was really funny. I think it was good for me to laugh that much actually because it made me feel a hell of a lot better. We were learning about facial expressions and how to tell if people are lying and what not and all that other good stuff. But anyway, Mr. Contrera's was teaching us how to make the actual faces so that we could guess it from our classmates. We had to get into small groups and elect a person to try and make the faces. It was kind of funny because nobody else wanted to do it, so Daphne, this other girl and I just pointed to Gustavo and he was like, "oh no", but he ended up doing it anyway! So, anyway Mr. Contreras started reading the instructions..."Raise your eyebrows, tense your eyelids, lower your jaw" and stuff like that and then when the face was completed he asked, "Now, what face was that?" and some guy was like, "Stupid?" and then my professor said, "Actually, it's supposed to be surprised" and everyone started laughing. I dunno, maybe it sounds totally lame when I talk about it, but it was fun because everyone else was laughing about it. gosh, i probably sound pathetic don't I?

Etiquetas: boys, sketch

I was doing some self analysis today while I was sitting in my psychology class. We were learning about child development and parenting styles, and it had been scientifically proven that if someone had a good relationship with their parent during infancy, then it would affect the way they would develop romantic relationships in the future. I figured out that must be my problem. I have been told that I did not have a very good relationship when I was an infant. I was a very difficult child and wouldn't allow anyone to hold me and I would push myself away from my own mother and cry all the time and I never slept or participated with anyone at all. I think that this may also have something to do with the way I interact with people in real life. I do think I am a pretty difficult person at times. And, when I hear stories of my youth, I can easily relate it to the character that I am now. I can be social when I want to be, but most of the time, I am depressed, not social at all and I hate the majority of most people. Go figure since most people these days tend to be idiots anyway. I hate idiots so fuckin much. You have no idea. I dunno, I just thought it was pretty interesting and I wanted to raise my hand like all the other people were doing, but I didn't feel like talking about all of this in front of all those people.

I also had a VERY bizarre dream about math and time last night. I had a dream that time was turned backwards. Instead of the time going from 4,5,6...etc time would go back like 4,3,2,1...etc. And we would read time in polynomial factored form, so that in order to read the time, 6 o clock it would be displayed like (x+6)(x-6)(x+6)(x-6) and so forth. I don't know why it was in that order to be honest, but I woke up in the morning and felt VERY refreshed and energized like I had just had one of the greatest sleeps on my entire life.

Etiquetas: boys, sketch

I'm such a boring person to talk to on messenger I swear and I don't know why. I guess it's okay sometimes, but I have to be in the mood for chat or else I'll be one of those people that you're like..."oh gosh...say something cool already!" I mean, I like talking to people and all, but I hardly ever sign on because 1)work 2)school 3)I'm too busy with other things hah hah
do you guys like to go on messenger?
and there is an anonymous follower on my page...I'd like to know who it is

and I'm debating whether I should put this picture up on DA or not....tis a battle going on inside of me at the moment...

Etiquetas: boys, devil may Cry, DMC

I feel horrible actually, and I don't know why I don't sound more enthusiastic these days. Sometimes I just feel like all the energy and motivation is wiped out of me, and sometimes I feel like I want to go back to my old bad habits. The habits that nearly caused my death and I don't know why I feel this way, but a part of me still feels like it's missing something.

They asked me to stay until 10 o clock today at work and I refused it actually. I don't even know why I refused it. I need the money, and my best friend was working there. I felt horrible for abandoning them like that because I know that if it were me, I wouldn't have wanted someone to do that and I know how it feels actually when someone doesn't stay. It feels horrible! So yeah, I pretty much feel like a monster at this point and I am trying to push my regret behind me because there is nothing I can really do...but...you know.

Etiquetas: boy, boys, sketch, work