miƩrcoles, 28 de julio de 2010

I feel horrible actually, and I don't know why I don't sound more enthusiastic these days. Sometimes I just feel like all the energy and motivation is wiped out of me, and sometimes I feel like I want to go back to my old bad habits. The habits that nearly caused my death and I don't know why I feel this way, but a part of me still feels like it's missing something.

They asked me to stay until 10 o clock today at work and I refused it actually. I don't even know why I refused it. I need the money, and my best friend was working there. I felt horrible for abandoning them like that because I know that if it were me, I wouldn't have wanted someone to do that and I know how it feels actually when someone doesn't stay. It feels horrible! So yeah, I pretty much feel like a monster at this point and I am trying to push my regret behind me because there is nothing I can really do...but...you know.

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Andres at 20:17 |

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At 30 de julio de 2010, 4:20, Blogger Sharifah said........
Someone told me that to be happier in life, we should try to be as detached as possible. I have no idea what he meant by that, but maybe you would?

Anyway; I think you're tired. It happens. I suggest you try taking it slow for a while, do the things you like, avoid the negative things in life. Do the things that make you feel right- abandon the things that make you feel horrible.

Try meditating? x'D And deep breathes work wonders. Take care of yourself, or you'll have me worrying over you!

Also, I don't know if you've received my reply or not, but about your question...

you'll have to go to go to your Dashboard. Under your blog title, you'll see links. Click 'settings' and go to 'comments' then scroll down till you see a box labelled 'comment notification email'. Write down your email there. :D And you'll get notifications when someone replies to your blog.

You'll have to check blogs that you commented in manually, though.
 


At 30 de julio de 2010, 12:35, Blogger PunchMe said........
Aw man, I hope it's getting better for you, I feel so bad reading about this..you're always so chipper..and I don't want to see you so down like this, if there were anyways I could cheer you up. Just say man :)
Also I'm never good at giving advice but I find long walks with the dog always therapeutic..that's all I can say
 


At 30 de julio de 2010, 16:32, Blogger Andres said........
Sharifah: Yeah I understand what you mean. I think by that quote they meant that in order to be happy, you should escape reality because the real world sucks. Or at least that's what I think they meant by it? But thank you for all the great advice, it meant a lot to me actually. I think you are right. I just need time to relax and yeah I dunno. I get depressed sometimes about this stuff. I can't really explain it, I guess it's because I compare myself to others more often than I should. I don't do it because I want to, it just happens out of nowhere ya know??

and yeah, I did get the comment you left me!! Thanks for the tip, I'm going to reset the settings right now XD
 


At 30 de julio de 2010, 16:34, Blogger Andres said........
Sophie: Don't worry about cheering me up!! I'll be okay. I sometimes get days like this and then in a few days I will be back to normal. I just get a little depressed, and like, I always feel I am not good enough. Especially with my artwork most of the time. I see artists who are like, 15 and they draw better than me and I'm like...21? It's kinda depressing when I think about it too much. But I know everyone has their own talents and everyone is different and all that, but it just gets to me sometimes ya know?
 


At 30 de julio de 2010, 22:26, Blogger kogane said........
Sorry I'm late at replying, though I suppose I know the feeling. Apathy is pretty common amongst everyone and it'll happen every once in a while. The feeling will surely pass... And I hope soon. I'm not exactly the best at advice like this. Whenever I feel down, I just surround myself with cute things /because I'm a sap like that/ and I'll watch something happy whether it'd be a comedy or just a feel good movie /because I'm more of a little sap like that/. But the thing is with something like indifference or being tired is that you really can't force yourself to be happy and cheerful. You'll just have to take a rest and stop for a moment. :>
 


At 31 de julio de 2010, 16:59, Blogger Andres said........
Kogane: Mostly, what I feel is guilt for leaving my friend behind. I was sitting with them at lunch today because I met her in time so that she could take her break with me and I brought her candy and stuff like that, and she acted all fine and dandy, but then a part of me wasn't sure if she was pissed at me or if she was just really good at hiding her feelings. Which I'm sure was it. She's really good at hiding things, but I did apologize for it and it made me feel a bit better afterwards >.>