I was doing some self analysis today while I was sitting in my psychology class. We were learning about child development and parenting styles, and it had been scientifically proven that if someone had a good relationship with their parent during infancy, then it would affect the way they would develop romantic relationships in the future. I figured out that must be my problem. I have been told that I did not have a very good relationship when I was an infant. I was a very difficult child and wouldn't allow anyone to hold me and I would push myself away from my own mother and cry all the time and I never slept or participated with anyone at all. I think that this may also have something to do with the way I interact with people in real life. I do think I am a pretty difficult person at times. And, when I hear stories of my youth, I can easily relate it to the character that I am now. I can be social when I want to be, but most of the time, I am depressed, not social at all and I hate the majority of most people. Go figure since most people these days tend to be idiots anyway. I hate idiots so fuckin much. You have no idea. I dunno, I just thought it was pretty interesting and I wanted to raise my hand like all the other people were doing, but I didn't feel like talking about all of this in front of all those people.

I also had a VERY bizarre dream about math and time last night. I had a dream that time was turned backwards. Instead of the time going from 4,5,6...etc time would go back like 4,3,2,1...etc. And we would read time in polynomial factored form, so that in order to read the time, 6 o clock it would be displayed like (x+6)(x-6)(x+6)(x-6) and so forth. I don't know why it was in that order to be honest, but I woke up in the morning and felt VERY refreshed and energized like I had just had one of the greatest sleeps on my entire life.

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