alright, I'll get around to updates soon, but I haven't been online in a few days because I haven't been doing so well. I also have to go to class in half an hour. Today is my first day at school, I am just sitting here in the computer lab watching the minutes tick by and I hope I am not going to be stuck with a bunch of imbeciles. They say people mature when you get to college, but there are always those sticklers that stay around and cause a nuisance to everyone and everything. Last semester I got stuck to this girl who didn't even try. I really saw potential in that girl, but she kept using her ADHD as an excuse for everything and I knew that even though she had ADHD, that shouldn't have kept her down.

About two days ago...oh wait...no it was yesterday... the day before yesterday, I fainted. Like, literally just fainted right there. On Sunday I was feeling REALLY under the weather. I was getting cold chills, my knees were shaking, I had a headache, I was feeling nauseous and woozy and I was at work and thought I wasn't going to make it, and then I got home late at night and went to bed. I was starving, but felt too sick to eat so I ignored it, and then I woke up about 3 times feeling the same with no relief. I felt like my world was spinning and like I had no control of my body. My bones hurt so bad, I felt this shooting pain up my legs and and I kept drinking water and feeling starving but too sick to eat. Then I woke up for the last time because I had to go into work and my vision started getting blurry. I tried reaching for some water, and drank some and I felt fine for a few seconds. Then, I was walking back to my room to lay down for a few more seconds and I felt the world spin around me, my vision turned black, I hit my head against something and then I woke up a few seconds later and I was laying on the ground. The only way I knew I was on the ground was because I felt my body against the cold floor and my head was hurting and for some reason the pain felt relieving and I felt a little better, but then my room mate came in and got so scared. He was like, "what happened!?" and helped me up and stuff like that

But, I got up and my bones were killing me, but I knew I had to go into work anyways. It was a pretty bad day and then yesterday my neck was KILLING me. Probably from the fall or something, but I couldn't turn my head without even cringing. I just played video games all day since I had a day off, but on Sunday when I had to go into work, I felt horrible because they sent me home after 2 hours. I told them I could stay my entire shift and they still made me leave. I don't know why, but I felt horribly ashamed, the same feeling someone would get if they were publicly humiliated. I feel like they won't think the same of me anymore, and now I have to prove myself all over again. I am going in today, and I keep waking up with the same fear that I'm going to faint again...something like that had never happened to me before...and I'm sorry for the long post...I don't think anyone even read this, but heck I need to get it out...because the real world just doesn't want to listen to your problems.

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